"Mini" Life Update:Holy mother of barometric pressure change..
🕑 Added 2025-03-12 20:51:02 +0000 UTC
"Mini" Life Update:Holy mother of barometric pressure change, Batman! Feeling the weather today, just want to stay in bed & cuddle☂️As I continue to dig thru boxes, pump myself for seemingly endless doc appts, do my best to consume the news responsibly, and rebuild everything that fell apart at the seams thru unexpectedly moving so many times-I am so fucking grateful to be able to laugh!! To be unapologetically silly!Please enjoy this buried BTS of my first time using this gifted netipot😆 I'm still finding footage lost in the moving scramble (sooooorrry!) but am fucking proud of myself for holding onto the ability to laugh. Hope it gives you a laugh too🖤To feel grounded in who I am&my values, to feel-feel the unsexy&difficult feelings that are apart of life because it means I've won the battle (at least for a day) to not be numb, tuned out, disembodied.One of those unsexy, difficult feelings has been feeling "blue-balled by life," watching all the progress I've made sacrifices for be washed away overnight; beyond "back to Square 1" but undeniably in a deficit. Shitty landlords are shitty; fuuuuuuuck mold. The toll on my health(&finances) has been hard to talk about; my body's been speaking up & the temptation to numb out was high.I shared recently how posting feels like a celebration of even being emotionally available to feel horny, let alone confident in my own judgement that expressing it online was coming from a grounded place. I'm so glad I was patient with myself to let that confidence come back!! To unpack parasocial baggage (more updates on that later) and prioritize feeling present; acting from a centered place that aligned with my values. When online traffic is so driven by ragebait for engagement, over-sharing, & unhealthy parasocial attachment- I sincerely do give a fuck about all of you, the impact of how I carry myself, the example I set for younger creators. Even if it means taking an even greater financial hit at an already precarious time, I'm happy I took time to slow down & live that value I hold.To me, that's what "ethical porn" is about (that's the terminology being used, I'd argue "more-ethical" would be more fitting) I look forward to breathing more life into this concept & how much my views will continue to evolve. To the new connections I'll make as I continue to be authentic myself & let it be seen:}The BIGGEST OF THANK YOU'S to all of you who have supported me! Who've made me laugh, contributed to the space, treated me like a whole person (heh heh hole person👃🏻) and shared what "more ethical porn" looks&feels like to you🌈🖤
