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I have some exciting news! I didn't wanna say anything till ..
🕑 Added 2021-11-13 14:27:03 +0000 UTC I have some exciting news! I didn't wanna say anything till it was closer bcs even tho we've been planning this for several months I didn't wanna get hopes up if something fell through. Anyway I am super excited to announce I'm going to be staying with Bee (@overlairbee) for a few days to hopefully have a little mental health recharge and get some work help. I haven't stayed over anywhere more than a couple of nights in yrs, definitely not since I've gotten so sick so it's really nerve-wracking trying to account for various body mishaps and packing accordingly. It's taken ages to get my apt set up to be less stressful on my little cripple body so it's definitely daunting to think of trying to adapt in a new place. Bee is being a super good sport as I've been bombarding them with questions about their space/preferences/logistics to try and figure out the least stuff I need to pack but it's still a lot! Also don't talk to me about being away from my fur children for that long I am absolutely not happy about going a few days without kitty snuggles, so Bee is just gonna have to love me extra to distract me haha There's also a lot I wanted to have done before I left work wise but ofc there's been a few hiccups in the mix and I'm a bit behind again. My type A brain keeps trying to pack stuff to shoot or work on and before I know it suddenly my pack pile has ten looks to shoot and I gotta remind myself the main object of this trip is to hopefully get some healing done, and def not wearing myself into the ground overbooking content creation! Urgh fam, I haven't let myself think of this trip beyond logistics yet bcs I can't take much more big let downs right now but maybe if don't say it out loud we're still ok haha. This isolation from friends and other creatives has really been taking a toll on my health, mental especially. I need a lot of alone time bcs I run down easy, I feel things intensely so it can be draining depending on who I'm around, but I still abosultely need contact to feel okay. This whole pandemic I've only been able to hug my mum once, and a friend once (only just a couple months ago). I don't click with a lot of ppl but when I do I am a super affectionate person, esp physically. I've brought more tham one friend over to the dark side of platonic cuddles and they're always like "dam I've been missing out" haha. And then creative friends on top of that nourish my soul in a unique way Esp when working on stuff together we always end up with something greater than the sum of its parts or anything either of us could have done alone. And a layer beyond that, esp these days, when I'm spending time with someone who also has chronic health issues it's so much easier, there's so much you don't have to explain extra bcs they just get it. And whaddya kno Bee's all three 😭 like not to put too much pressure on em or anything but my body actually aches thinking about how long it's been since I just had a joyful putting on makeup gab, or lingerie try on huggles, like I'm just rly excited ok ☺️ I've had some personal struggles I haven't been able to get into here on top of everything going to heck the last few weeks so I've rly been struggling w basic stuff and I'm also excited about the extra help, hopefully mildly sanity inducing! So I'm sure Clara work brain is gonna win and shoot a couple looks at least but I'm gonna try rly fricking hard to focus on pacing and not pushing my body to do stuff that's gonna harm it (which I guess applies to prepping too *nervously glances at 6 page todo list* shhh ok maybe I need to redo that) Oh and FYI Bee's pronouns are they/them just to allay any confusion 💕 PS did I mention THEYVE GOT A HOTTUB?! praise the slutty achey God's I'm hyped. Lucky I got that new bikini ehhhhh 😈💦 PPS OMG HOW COULD I FORGET ALSO THEY HAVE A COFFIN WHICH IS PRETTY COOL but I don't know if I have thr spoons to shoot in it haha if I did tho what kind of a look should it be? I mean vampire is the obvious choice but are there any I'm missing?
