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Happy 4/20 Tuesday my friends 🌿 This morning I did a small ..
🕑 Added 2021-04-20 17:04:59 +0000 UTC Happy 4/20 Tuesday my friends 🌿 This morning I did a small self actualization meditation and thought I’d share the process with you. I’ve struggled with my relationship with food from a youngg age And recently I have not been nourishing myself with the type of nourishment my body agrees with, making me feel like crap and wondering why I do this with my own free will. So in my meditation I surface the feelings I feel from when I’m in that space of eating crap I know I don’t want It felt like “I have no self control” So then I asked myself to remember my first cognitive memory I ever had with food, the memory that popped up most prominently was a time when I was around 5–10 years old and my parents forcingg me to eat a piece of steak that I didn’t want because I had already began to realize that meat does not agree with me 🤣 but in that moment I didn’t have that choice to make, I couldn’t just listen to my body for what it wanted because my authority figures demanded the opposite. I remember this giving me such a sense of powerlessness. So in my meditation I took that memory and imagined myself in present time coming into the memory to comfort the little girl whom felt like she had no say in what was best for her. Reminding her that she has and will always be the creator of her own life, choices, patterns, passions, destiny and unique path. I imagined giving my little self the biggest hug as she cried. Then I closed the meditation by just sitting in that space. Observing my thoughts and What came up from that. It’s a very interesting experience. I want to get more involved with the foods I choose to put in my body. I need to learn how to really take this simple daily experience and recognize the magic that occurs within it! On this day 4/20 as I pop an edible into my mouth, And enjoy its fantastic flavor, I will from this day forward relearn how to listen to myself and align with what I know is best for me Mckay 🦋
