I've been reflecting on how far I've come with my education...
🕑 Added 2023-11-25 13:09:30 +0000 UTC
I've been reflecting on how far I've come with my education. It was hard convincing the university to allow me in. I applied and wrote a cover letter. I even called a million times to follow up. I had to explain to them why I had a GED from the state that no longer requires students to be proficient in reading, writing and math to graduate. I also had a 1.0 GPA in college too... I felt so humiliated having to explain that I didn't care and didn't want to apply myself at the time and that's why I had nothing but F's. I had to tell them that I can do absolutely ANYTHING I want to and always succeed when I decide to. I showed them my track record of success and independence and told them I WILL excel in their school. They then accepted me and I have been keeping straight A's ever since. A+ in some courses. I feel that I have something to prove now since I was such a failure in my past. I never kept a job, applied myself in school, or committed to any relationship. I sit here today and look back at the fact that all I was missing was the ability to trust my own instincts. Once I did that, everything changed for me. I wish I saw my potential sooner and I wish that those old feelings didn't come up as often as they do. It took a lot to push past all the thoughts running in my head when I applied for college. Like, "you're too old", "what makes you think you'll be able to succeed at this when you failed epically every time before?", etc. If you guys are struggling with something due to confidence or fear of failure, don't let it hinder you.
Sometimes, the most healing thing you can do for yourself is to win in the places where you've lost.
