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🕑 Added 2024-02-15 21:24:28 +0000 UTC 🚨FYI: LONG POST! 🚨 *This is probably the first time in my seven years in the industry that I've been this slow/inconsistent with posting. There's been a LOT happening and I had to withdraw from school this term because I've been overwhelmed and my grades have been slipping. I'll return in the fall but until then, I've opened up my day enough that I can actually breathe. Luckily, the things that have me overwhelmed are *good* things! The owner at my gym came up to me and asked me if I'd get CrossFit certified and go through their internship to become a COACH! I've been wanting this for years now and I'm so thrilled about the opportunity! I'm literally in school for exercise science, and now I have this offer land into my lap 3.5 years before I'd graduate. Of course, I still have my insecurities. I thought I'd have more time then this and I'd like to be in much better shape than I am. I feel a sense of panic to rush the process. Another positive: I now live in a state where people come/go all year around and there's always conventions. It's much easier for me to collab with other pornstars and attend conventions to network. That's why you've been seeing so much new content with others! I've made amazing friendships that blossomed very quickly and positively. Those new friendships have led into me exploring my sexuality a lot more. Although being exclusive with my husband was right for me for many years, I've lately been dipping my toe into new types of content. Rough scenes, fetish scenes, etc. Those are best done with people who are experienced in it and that I feel comfortable around. So far, it's been a wonderful way to gain variety into my scenes and safely explorer new kinks. You guys, in a way, are watching me as I document the progression in my journey to sexual liberation. Lastly, this is a far more personal detail and I wasn't sure I'd share, but... : I've been working to schedule tubal litigation. I struggle to take birth control and as I'm creeping closer to 30, I STILL don't want to be a mama. I'm ready to put a stop to the constant worry regarding pregnancy prevention. It'll help me balance out my hormones, shoot better content and reduce the anxiety that comes along with all of it. I'm so excited and happy about it, but was scared to tell anyone. I told my family and they're NOT thrilled and have been extremely discouraging of it. I'm trying not to let them take away from the joy and excitement this decision has for me. No one likes that it's permanent, but that's kind of the whole idea of it! 🤣 Doctor appointments, conventions, fighting to get into good shape, studying for CrossFit certification, shooting new types of content with new people, and all the shit in between has occupied almost every waking second I have. With school on the back-burner for the next 6 months, I'm back to being more consistent again. Be ready for some wild new scenes I have planned! 😈 Thank you so much for reading this whole thing. I know it was a lot, but for those who care enough to finish the novel, I appreciate you!*
