Being a gainer the last 10 yrs has been so freeing. I was 18..
🕑 Added 2021-07-31 08:43:58 +0000 UTC
Being a gainer the last 10 yrs has been so freeing. I was 18 when I started. And even though I was stuffing myself and loved how soft I was, I was still wearing shapewear to be more put together. And to have a “better” body silhouette. I wouldn’t wear tight dresses in public. Wouldn’t eat very much at restaurants out of fear of being judged.
Getting larger has allowed me to love myself and realize societies pressures they put on women to be thin is all just some social construct. I’m over 200 pounds more than I was at 18, and I wear all the skin tight dresses, and love my cellulite and double chin. And think my belly is my sexiest body part.
I was always dieting in high school, and failing every time and disappointed in myself. And for what? Because magazines, and tv and society think beauty lies in how thin your body is. Diet culture ruins so many beautiful women’s self esteem because they can’t be some unattainable size. Some women spend their lives never wearing a bikini/swimsuit. And can’t stare at themselves in the mirror. If society didn’t raise us with thin being the beauty standard, so many more women would love themselves. And their perceived flaws.
I’m really glad to be fat. And glad I discovered feedism/feederism and self love for myself honestly.
I don’t know if this is the place to share this. But had to get it off my chest. I’m just so happy to be so happy and at peace when I look in the mirror. Because my high school years were so difficult and riddled with hating my curvy body. I was made fun of. It was hard being the fattest girl in the room growing up. And even the fattest person at my schools. The shame I felt was insurmountable.
And I feel no shame now. It’s very liberating because people can’t imagine why I’d even go out in public looking like I do at my size now, and it’s because I love myself and they can’t understand why. A lot of people hate to see fat women thriving and happy, because they feel How can someone like me love myself the way I am, when they work so hard to be fit and still aren’t happy with themselves.
Lots of time unlearning negativity towards my body. And putting how I feel about myself as most important. Always thinking introspectively to make sure I live for me. And no one else.
