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Hiii, if you are new or old here, a little bit about my day ..
🕑 Added 2022-08-01 12:42:41 +0000 UTC Hiii, if you are new or old here, a little bit about my day today. Today is my weekly routine having acute chronic pain since 2015. It involves long drives to see specialists, seek answers, visit multiple, get treatment, get therapy, come home hoping the treatment was enough to control my intense chronic pains to a manageable level that will help me get through the next week until my next treatment day. I’ve had treatment consistently now once a week for years, at one point I would be going 2-3 times a week. I had a bad flare up yesterday which prevented me from getting any sleep, I was all up all hours 🥲 and people wonder why I struggle as an adult with routine and to be a consistent person. Even if I try sometimes it feels the odds are always against me. What I have is 100% an invisible disability and it effects my whole body, mostly my cervical, scalenes, sub scapula and throughout the rest of my body, usually each muscle surrounding a joint all the way down to my feet. Going to the gym is hard because it actually makes my pain inflame 🥹 which is why my weight can sometimes fluctuate, between me having the mental energy to go the gym and deal with the after math of a bad flare up for days after vs giving up from mental exhaustion & depression caused by suffering from physical pain for too many days in a row. Living with an invisible disability is often hard as people always assume I ‘look ok’ but really I’m a master at masking and putting a huge smile on my face. Life is very crazy and I never thought this would become ‘my life’ ‘my story’ and a huge part of who I am. Especially after being a professional dancer & bodybuilder and going from a SUPER active person to completely inactivate, my whole life was involved around sports and fitness. It’s been really hard and took a long time to accept that but here I am ❤️ Still fighting & still seeking answers, onlyfans has allowed me to keep pushing in hope and to never give up hope. That’s enough of me for today! 😘😘😘
