***Life Update:*** if you can’t tell, I’ve been falling back..
🕑 Added 2022-08-04 00:00:39 +0000 UTC
***Life Update:*** if you can’t tell, I’ve been falling back in love with feedism. Taking some distance from it really helped me evaluate my relationship with it and what it means to me. I’m a lifer; been into this as long as I can remember. There’s no denying it. There’s also no denying that the community can be toxic as hell, and I unfortunately let that vocal minority steal my focus from my true fans. My plan is still to lose some more weight so I can enjoy gaining with a partner. While you guys mean the world to me, gaining alone isn’t fulfilling for me and it’s hard to stay turned on and motivated without a partner. I learned a lot from my first big gain. Stay active no matter how hot being an idle blob my be. And more importantly DO IT MY WAY at my pace and fuck the haters. Being single and fat really challenged my body image and self esteem. All the intense therapy I’ve been doing has healed that for me. I do truly love myself and my body no matter what now, and really don’t give a fuck about being a thin gym rat anymore. ***I will gain again the second I get a partner, so be patient with me. Come and go as you please during this lull, I still love you.***
This is probably tmi but I started a new medication and feel fucking amazing. Hopefully it doesn’t konk out on me bc that tends to happen 🙃 that or they have to up the dose and then the side effects are unbearable. Just mental health things.
