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Done with my internship! Against all odds lol. It can be an..
🕑 Added 2021-09-17 11:28:28 +0000 UTC Done with my internship! Against all odds lol. It can be an unsettling feeling, writing and working with questions of mental illness while consistently facing my own world of kaleidoscopic flood of responsibilities and decisions. Especially when I make the wrong decisions. Consistently. An old timey German sociologist Georg Simmel described the stresses of metropolitan life as emerging from an increasing rate of different experiences. Unlike the life of a rock on a farm, a human in a city faces - literally - an ever growing number of different scenes and choices. This is like 1920s Hamburg he's talking about, mind you. Add to the that the hyper-produced online cosmopolitan spheres where fashion, news, humor, opinions, and sexuality are produced, presented, and discarded at such high speeds that it's goddamn exhausting. Personally, I know I don't do a good job of it. I get carried away by one newly presenting dimension of life, then realize I've looked over other already extant ones. Both for better and for worse I've been living in a kind of carousel of excitement and crisis in which opportunities and neglect pile up on each other like the nastiest of history's psychotropic pile-ups. I know sometimes I can't make heads or tails out of where I'm standing. I hope I can still make some sense out of the theories and histories that I spend my time with, though. I hope maybe some of you can too. I think there's something to this sense of contradiction that's inherent to a process that I'm still trying to figure out. At least we can all enjoy the pictures 😘
