I'm currently in the process of making some huge changes in ..
🕑 Added 2024-04-15 22:01:57 +0000 UTC
I'm currently in the process of making some huge changes in my life and in doing so I suddenly realized something while working with some fears in my mind. I had this thought.
I thought "hmm", as I watched some fearful worst case scenario thoughts go through my mind, "hmmm if what quantum physicists says is true; that the Universe truly is infinite and that everything exists right here and now because space and time doesn't actually exist. If what spiritual teachers says is true that we are eternal and that everything is here and now we just need to choose to experience them. Then what does it matter what happens in between?"
I'll elaborate. For me personally, I see myself living in Indiana with a woman I fell in love with years ago and want to settle down with and marry. I've spent countless hours meditating and visualizing the beautiful life we have together and the quiet home we live in together. But in physical reality, I am currently in Wisconsin and have more credit card balance due than actual money in my bank account.
Recently I received inspiration to simply pack my welder in my car and go to Indiana and start to offer my welding services for free. I felt very excited and drawn to the idea and so I am about 90% sure I will follow through with the inspiration. However there are still some things I need to wrap up in Wisconsin and so while I am still here, I've been dealing with fears of
1.what if I end up homeless?
2.what if I end up running out of credit on my credit card?
3.what if I end up sick without a place to rest and heal?
4.what if things don't go well with my woman?
5.what if what if what if...you get the idea
And so my realization as I sat and watched those fears go through my mind and then release them, I suddenly thought "hmm if everything truly is already here and now. That would mean that somehow someway I ended up in my woman's arms and in the quiet little home I saw us living in. So does it really matter what happens on my way there? If everything is here and now then that also means that the reality I saw of us living in peace is already here. That means that I made it there somehow someway because like I said, that reality is already here and now...at least according to the countless spiritual teachers I listen to and the implications of scientific studies in the quantum department...which by the way is the study of the fabric of reality and all within it because everything is energy. That is a scientific statement not a guess or theory.
Soooooo since everything is here including the reality I saw in my mind that I so dearly want, then that means that I somehow made it there. I don't have a fucking clue how but somehow someway there is a reality where I made it safely and soundly in bed with my "future" wife. If that's the case then what does it matter if I get deathly ill on my way there? So what if I end up with crippling debt? So what if I experience being homeless for awhile?
At the end I arrived at my desired destination with suffering in between or with the most pleasant of journeys and pleasures. It doesn't matter now does it??
That's what I thought. It doesn't matter what happens in between.
