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nada es igual, nada es igual, nada i feel like im lost. I us..
nada es igual, nada es igual, nada i feel like im lost. I used to be the person who knows exactly what to do what to act on next. I wake up then i know my purpose of the day. I know exactly what my next step is. I dont now. I feel lost. I mean yes i want to be a super star, and the whole world is waiting for it to happen. i know it cuz i know how much i'll shine. But.......umm i dont know?! will it ever happen? u...
i think you guys are gonna like this picture haha. ive kind..
i think you guys are gonna like this picture haha. ive kinda lost myself these days. i dont know what to do. On one hand i wanna keep improving my musical skills, on the other hand i really need to be financially independant. To do that, i have been studying tiktok.. But honestly tiktok is quite stupid...... all the dance and lipsync and all that. But its a platform for more people to get to know me so i guess i hav...
I saw that a lot of old subscribers are coming back omg than..
I saw that a lot of old subscribers are coming back omg thank you!!!!!! 🥰 I'll post more and more often I promise!! I love you 😭 Thank you for helping me to be financially independent. I'm still not there yet but you guys are definitely helping me a lot a lot!! Anyways, Ive been having some panic attacks from time to time. I'm pretty stressed out. Not just from my business but also my body. Eating ...
I've been putting a lot of ideas on tiktok. I wanna help pay..
I've been putting a lot of ideas on tiktok. I wanna help pay family bills. In fact, I NEED TO help pay family bills....... Things are getting complicated...... For the first time in my life I think I know what anxiety actually is. I have had moments when I felt like I was so stressed that I couldn't breathe at all....... I'll start posting more often on here as well from now on. Guys I really appreciate y...
I'm sad.
I'm sad.
I was just practicing piano. I really miss home. It's been 9..
I was just practicing piano. I really miss home. It's been 9 months. Lately I been a bit confused. Am I gonna make it and bring home good news? I don't know. One thing I know is that I got it. I'm special and I got it. I know I do. but when will they see me?
Hi how's everything everybody So to recap what I have been ..
Hi how's everything everybody So to recap what I have been doing these months- coping with depression and learning more musical skills. I discovered that I could sing whistle notes. And my vocal teacher was very impressed haha. Also I'm getting back on track with my body. Working out frequently and learning how to cook. I'm getting better and stronger again. I don't stop. It's time to keep movin...
guys I just wanna say thank you so much for waiting and supp..
guys I just wanna say thank you so much for waiting and supporting still. I been dealing with my mental health and I'm getting back on track slowly. so yea I'll be back soon! Stay tuned! Love you guys
Day? Some selfies. I've been living in a hostel for about 2..
Day? Some selfies. I've been living in a hostel for about 2 weeks. everything seems to be getting better, except that I know my problem is still there. I'm not happy around my friends anymore. yea I met some friends here at the hostel. but I knew something was not the same anymore. I'm so self abused now. I feel like I'm inferior. Also my grandmother was hospitalized. I'm very very very worried...
Day ? I moved to a hostel this week. I feel like living in ..
Day ? I moved to a hostel this week. I feel like living in a hotel really isolated me. I feel like I need to me et some people and maybe that will help with my depression. I also am trying to keep me on my toes. I love it here at the hostel. I did me et a lot of friends who are super nice. I really think it helped. because I thought people were not gonna be friends with me because I'm ugly, I'm fat and I&#...
To all my fans who are still supporting me: THANK YOU. Thank..
To all my fans who are still supporting me: THANK YOU. Thank you for still being here when I'm down. I couldn't have expected more. I love you guys so much thank you for staying with me. I know I haven't been the happiest person, the most productive creator. but seeing you guys still being here after so many leaving, I feel encouraged, I feel touched. I do need this! and so I really really wanna give you...
day ? you guys must think I don't update anymore WRONG!!!!! ..
day ? you guys must think I don't update anymore WRONG!!!!! I'm still updating! maybe less frequent since I'm dealing with my depression. But! I'm strong so I'll pull it through. I've been writing songs. I wrote a song called Fucking Loser. Personally don't really feel like it's an amazing song but I played it to my friends. And they all loved it and think it's a great song. haha...
Day? I'm depressed. I thought going on vacation in morroco ..
Day? I'm depressed. I thought going on vacation in morroco would cheer me up. I was wrong. I'm more depressed now. I got back to Barcelona today to seek help. first time getting a shrink, I hope they help.
day ? Hi. I'm in Morocco again. this is my second time here...
day ? Hi. I'm in Morocco again. this is my second time here. I've been writing songs these days.... I really wanna win a Grammy. I will keep working hard for it
day? ok I'm here guys. sorry I've been distracted lately, a..
day? ok I'm here guys. sorry I've been distracted lately, as I should honestly. I've gone back to songwriting mode. this is my video after Iworked out . I love sweat I love exercise. I'm trying to get back and I think workout really helps
Day? I see my fans on here are getting less and less. I'm a..
Day? I see my fans on here are getting less and less. I'm actually not upset about it because I feel like what I share here is extremely personal and intimate to me. both of my pictures and my thoughts. So the smaller the circle is, the closer i can feel with you guys. Just you guys and me, im happy enough to be your friend. 😊 trying hard to put myself together dont worry about me guys! This is life!! Life i...
day? I'm literally falling apart. had a mental breakdown to..
day? I'm literally falling apart. had a mental breakdown today. it's happened to me before. I don't like depression. I wish it go away sooner. I feel like a failure, loser. I feel like I'm left behind.
day? hi depression. You won't defeat me. I will get back up ..
day? hi depression. You won't defeat me. I will get back up like all the other times.
Day ? Here's the original picture from IG. So lately, I'm ..
Day ? Here's the original picture from IG. So lately, I'm depressed again. I don't see the future again. and I feel like I'm already 22 and everything is too late. I've always been thinking, how come there are people that were born in rich family hence the brilliant education and then they make it before everybody. Like why? Isn't life supposed to be fair? I know it's not but, my family ...
Day 12? Whole video of me ripping off my pantyhose hahaha L..
Day 12? Whole video of me ripping off my pantyhose hahaha Lately, I'm trying to slowly get back to being normal. So yea.. I hope things will be fine again. I wanna do so many things but when I'm depressed i don't wanna do anything so I have to get my shit together! I can't waste time! btw when I search dragon fruit on Amazon, it's all seeds of dragon fruit I'm like whaaat 😑 definitely tao...
Day? Some selfies. Getting depressed again and under pressu..
Day? Some selfies. Getting depressed again and under pressure so lately I've kinda abandoned social media. I wanna go back to the normal life. I've even lost interests in practicing. when I start focusing I'll just be thinking, why am I even trying? ive tried so hard for years and look at me, still a failure. (and there are so many people who made it without even putting out so much efforts.....🤒) Bu...
Day? Hii Happy Chinese new year to yall! Again, I celebrated..
Day? Hii Happy Chinese new year to yall! Again, I celebrated Chinese new year alone. Went to my normal routine life. Practice, class and stuff. I really really do miss my family.😭😭😭 I feel like my life has again reduced to self doubt and self blaming. When I see all these artists who have made it, I feel like a failure.
Day? It's Chinese new year tomorrow. I really miss them. I'..
Day? It's Chinese new year tomorrow. I really miss them. I'm all alone in Spain. ALL ALONE. Sometimes I think maybe I could use a friend or two. but then at a second thought, guess that's just not for me. because they can take up your a lot of time. I'm tired. and very very nostalgic. I miss home
Day ? So! I've been trying to figure out the song Californic..
Day ? So! I've been trying to figure out the song Californication by ear. Thought it was easy but IT IS SO NOT! a lot of nuance, different phrases they sound the same but the details...... Goshhhh it's quite hard. Went to a music studio today, got introduced to a very talented producer. And I played one of the song I wrote to him and he instantly liked it! (btw this studio really is "la hostia", like ...
Day? I think you guys are gonna like this picture haha. Rece..
Day? I think you guys are gonna like this picture haha. Recently. Not much been going on. Stayed in for the whole weekend. Not much appetite. Went out Friday night. not much fun either and it was cold. I looked back at the songs I wrote almost a year ago, I realized that they were actually not bad! But I still feel ashamed to sing my songs to people. I don't know why. I think the way I think ashames me.. idk why....
Day 103 trying to get back on track! Had a tiring day. Woke ..
Day 103 trying to get back on track! Had a tiring day. Woke up at 8.30 went straight to practice drums and piano. Went to hunt for apartments. Then home took a nap before I went to my flamenco lesson. practiced again guitar and bass. Had a lot of thoughts about myself and my future and why I'm off lately. I want to be in my immersion zone again. Just write and write and write songs...
Day ??????? I'm not happy. I'm all alone. I know the winners..
Day ??????? I'm not happy. I'm all alone. I know the winners all have to take the path less walked. I know winners are all alone. But I'm also very insecure. I don't know if I'll make it. I used to be so sure I will. No I don't know anymore. It looks like a dead end alley. idk. I've also been super irritated, agitated, emotional, anxious lately. Feel like everything is going against me. I...
Day 9? Can you guys believe I still haven't found an apartme..
Day 9? Can you guys believe I still haven't found an apartment yet? It's been a month! it's not that I'm picky but just the red tape for renting an apartment in Spain makes everything IMPOSSIBLE omg! I'm in despair...... Anyways so somebody said to me today, that Spain is not the music center of Europe. London is. And that maybe I should travel there for a month or two. To see what's going on...
day 98 I lost 30+ euros when I was out tonight. Worst of all..
day 98 I lost 30+ euros when I was out tonight. Worst of all, before I went out I had a feeling that I would lose something today so I specifically kept it so well. Still I lost the money. Fucking dumbass me. I sometimes really hate myself for being unprecedentedly stupid 🙃 😫😫😫😫😫 . me now!still pouting🥲
Day 93 in Barcelona I been sad idk why. But I keep trying. ..
Day 93 in Barcelona I been sad idk why. But I keep trying. I'm not giving up. I still go to practice every day and I keep practicing 5 instruments a day, as much as all I feel like doing is stay home and be sad. Anyways. Hi tomorrow! hope you treat me better!
