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This was that shoot... Show of hands...who wants the Do Mor..

This was that shoot... Show of hands...who wants the Do More Chronicles?

But he did take a mean butt photo...

I learned so much about boundaries from that tire fire... S..

I learned so much about boundaries from that tire fire... Specifically that mine sucked

Every inside has an outside. What goes on inside your skin ..

Every inside has an outside. What goes on inside your skin is inseparable from what goes on outside your skin. A human being is not an organism in an environment, but an organism/environment. A unified field of behaviour. If you describe the behaviour of any organism, you cannot do so without describing the behaviour of the environment. The organism is not the puppet of the environment. Nor is the reverse. The ...

But this was a time when my sexuality was entirely performed..

But this was a time when my sexuality was entirely performed and just a secret even to myself. I had some instinctual sense of what I wanted, but no concept of how to go about getting it. Especially from where I was and who I was with. Because I was unw|lling to admit I couldn't get it if I stayed with him. Which is why an external energy with a desire to have any sense of control over me really made me curio...

He definitely wanted to fuck me. He told me. And the fact th..

He definitely wanted to fuck me. He told me. And the fact that I never would is probably the only reason he kept respecting me. I thought about it. I almost-almost did it. Conversations happened, but situations didn't. And the universe/uterus had my back on that one.

He treated me like shit, but like an intellectual. We talked..

He treated me like shit, but like an intellectual. We talked about books as he asked me to pop my ass. And he asked me about the marks he could see. The conversation certainly had me engaged. At the time I mistook his tone for assertiveness. He was the first person that opened up to me about mental health. And the first person I had to be radically honest about their complete lack of desire to actually get better.

I'm definitely technically old enough to know better here - ..

I'm definitely technically old enough to know better here - but emotionally I have way more maturing to do at this time than I realize. And I know that because I drove 3hrs to m33t a stranger at his house to take these images entirely behind my partner's back. And it wasn't my first time...

Chances are more than a few of you know who I'm referring to..

Chances are more than a few of you know who I'm referring to. This was from our first shoot. And my first shooting like this. When I showed up, the first thing he said was my hair looked like I had been in the rain and if he decides he wants to shoot with me again, I should straighten it. We shot again. I straightened it.

Strong spines mean more than perfect posture. If the head i..

Strong spines mean more than perfect posture. If the head isn’t physically on straight, imagine how sideways the inside feels?

Instead of striving for perfect purity, I think those who ca..

Instead of striving for perfect purity, I think those who capture images should strive for a clear intention. Both of your composition AND your reason for creating it. 99% of male photographers I've met and taught have been in the room so they can be in the room with a naked female. Frequently one that knows how to speak her boundaries. Equally frequently (and far scarier) with those who don't... During my...

I'm a believer that images of bodies should reflect more rea..

I'm a believer that images of bodies should reflect more reality than fantasy. But I also believe the purity of that is impossible. From posing to perspective to lens choice to lighting to editing to wardrobe to all of the elements of an image, there is no omnipotent view available. Therefore there is always a projection. A perception. A fantasy.

A photo is not a representation of reality. Even if the poi..

A photo is not a representation of reality. Even if the point is to document what is happening, it's only through the myopic lens of the perceiver. An image is a well-constructed lie captured in a fraction of a second. It's a fantasy. It can be fun and expansive and lucrative to create these. But it's important in this new singularity that we remember that even though we feel merged, we are certainly ...

I've also 1000% truly stopped caring about being perceived i..

I've also 1000% truly stopped caring about being perceived in a particular way by a particular person. The concept of clout as currency makes my skin hurt. And I am certainly a benefactor of it. But to chase it constantly as the primary metric is just not a way I can live my life. But I was subconsciously. I was more worried about how I was seen than how I would show up. What the photo looked like rather than ...

The thing that feels different is my instinct. I feel recon..

The thing that feels different is my instinct. I feel reconnected to it. To what is actually a yes and no for my truth and dreams to continue to create this big, weird reality of mine. And it's because for so many years I denied the signals she was sending me. I told myself she had led me astray before and I needed to retrain my senses before leaning into those signals. I told myself I was not trustworthy. So...

In many ways, I genuinely feel different. How to put a lived..

In many ways, I genuinely feel different. How to put a lived experience of that into words feels like describing a dream, but I look at it like a shaking hand that slowly finds its way to steady. It may look and feel the same, but how it performs and the quality with which can be entirely new. And while I haven't 180-ed my entire personality, I can honestly say that the impending doom I felt for the majority of...

I've always hated change. And yet I really thrive on it. In..

I've always hated change. And yet I really thrive on it. In the eye of the storm, it's not an ego statement to say that I'm a really good thunder buddy. As long as that storm doesn't involve riding a bike...then we're fucked. My brain does best with systems and organization, but my life force really doesn't like doing the same thing more than once unless I really like it. And then I'll ...

The calendar says today is important. Every day should be i..

The calendar says today is important. Every day should be important.

Today is just a day that card companies make more money. Eve..

Today is just a day that card companies make more money. Every day up until this day I've been making the conscious choice to love myself truly and above all, more than anyone else in my life. Being selfish with my energy has been the most productive thing I've ever done with it. Spending less to get more means I had to close off places where leaks couldn't be repaired. And in most cases severing that ti...

I've been the breadwinner AND the dick user more than once. ..

I've been the breadwinner AND the dick user more than once. A part of me loved stepping into this space because of the challenge and because I'm a creature of change. I also love picking up the cheque. A power move and a kind gesture rolled into one is always my favourite/codependence. "You get it next time"...if I want you to. But a part of me that may not be larger in size, but certainly in infl...

To feel soft and feminine is to feel safe and free. It's mor..

To feel soft and feminine is to feel safe and free. It's more than a feeling - it's a state. In our reality, those states often involve things like food, shelter, finances and human interaction. Without them, we go into survival. When taking on more than our flesh bag can handle, we go into crisis. In my own crisis, I can handle my own survival mode. When asked to take on someone else's and only given ac...

30 days of beach and yoga have been kind The bugs have not…

I've primarily explored domming in my intimate relationships..

I've primarily explored domming in my intimate relationships - which meant feeling the weight of the inherent codependency got very blurred with the traditional needs of any relationship. It didn't really strike me as odd that writing up a contract for my partners on how often they could access their own genitals due to self control struggles would be an odd duty to take on. I found a way to make it fun and ...

Almost all of the subs (except for one in particular) I've e..

Almost all of the subs (except for one in particular) I've ever played with have had notoriously bad communication. In my early ignorance, I wondered if this was a personality trait of the type of human that liked this sort of play. I've certainly struggled with my own verbal communication in the past and am no stranger to the fun of being fucked up, so I erred on the side of empathy. Until I met people wh...

I was always called to kink before any of the rest. I love ..

I was always called to kink before any of the rest. I love the way the brain works and being able to play with someone's subconscious in the physical really turns my gears. But you have to have connection and communication to do so. Casual doesn't usually lead to fast fun - at least for me. But this took me a long time and many no's to truly learn this about myself. So even of all the things I experi...

And don't get me wrong, I'm still a complete freak. However..

And don't get me wrong, I'm still a complete freak. However I've radically reconsidered where I want to be that human. In the early days of my fuckery it seemed safer to test the waters online because if there was any sort of crash and burn scenario it was really easy to hit the eject button. That quickly became unsatisfying and I graduated into singular dynamics with more experienced humans. That energ...

So this autistic 32-year-old recently single and now twice d..

So this autistic 32-year-old recently single and now twice divorced-ish decade long nude model with brief stints in domming, polyamory and porn is now on the hunt for something slightly more traditional. Should be a walk in the park (at night)...

"Oh damn...she wants to be wifed. That's new." Shit shifts ..

"Oh damn...she wants to be wifed. That's new." Shit shifts when you finally allow yourself to hear your truth. I thought for a long time monogamy and commitment were paths to hell. So I walked as far in the opposite direction as I could. Still ended up in the flames. Turns out it's not about the direction you choose, but making sure you choose the right one for the right reasons. If there are on...

I once tried to write about my thoughts on gender. But the m..

I once tried to write about my thoughts on gender. But the more I did the more I realized how complicated it is. And I spent a lot of time thinking and researching and talking to other people with other experiences. I kept coming back to a place that seemed to be a bit of a unique version of the opinion that gender is a construct. But for the sake of conversation, that's where my predominant position applies. How...

And yet same place, same people, hours before with more make..

And yet same place, same people, hours before with more makeup than I've worn in many many years - she was so ready to play. What felt like a mask for the last half-decade started to feel way more enjoyable than my androgyny. And the short hair started to somehow feel more femme than my previous mermaid mane.